you know he isn’t worth your tears. you know that he’s an asshole for waking up one day and randomly deciding to walk out of your life. he’s an even bigger asshole for making it look so easy. you think about him day and night, you’re tempted to text him, to call him, to tell him how much you miss him. but, you feel retarded for thinking about him that much when you know for a fact that you are the very last thing on his mind. he’s doing just fine, perfectly fine. he’s smiling, living his life with no worries and he’s happy that he got rid of the stress that comes with a girlfriend. the fact that he’s doing so fucking great without you makes you feel even more pathetic and despite the fact that you know you shouldn’t be crying over him and you know you deserve better, you can’t help but think about the sweetheart he once was to you. 

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

don’t lose yourself holding onto someone who isn’t afraid to lose you. why should you care when he doesn’t? why should you spend hours thinking about him when he hasn’t spent one minute thinking about you? i’m tired of boys coming off as such sweethearts to make girls fall for them and then when we do fall for them, they don’t even catch us. i’m not going to put my life on hold, sit around being miserable, beating myself up because of a stupid boy who tricked me into believing i could trust him with my heart. i’m going to be happy, i’m going to smile. i’m going to live my life without your memories weighing me down. that caring guy that swept me off my feet is gone, and i’m moving on.